You’re NOT what you are hearing

Your life is wrong. You’re all alone… a reject. You, are useless.

Those are the words I’ve been hearing over these last few weeks. Oftentimes so clear, it nearly stops me in my tracks.

To be honest, it’s why I haven’t written these past couple weeks. (Sigh* I’m sorry about that, friends.)

But I’ve made the decision to write, given the chance that some of you reading have felt the same sting of words this week. Cruel words, that have left you defeated and questioning if what you are doing will ever work. Haunting and hurtful words, that follow you everywhere and have you wondering if they are true (and if they’re not, then what is?)

If that’s you today, I’m here to tell you two things: The voice that is belittling you isn’t God… And you’re NOT what you are hearing.

 

Your life is wrong — I heard while watching my daughter play – alone – on the playground.

This isn’t the way it was supposed to be, I would say to myself, thinking of all the times I wanted another kid, a playmate for her, but God emphatically told me, NO.

“Your life is all wrong,” another voice would chime in.


You’re going to New York alone — I would hear when we were preparing to move to NYC to start a church (an already statistically impossible thing to do, let alone when you don’t have a team or a budget.)


You are useless — I heard word for word after sending my daughter (unexpectedly) to Kindergarten for the first time last week, reminding me of a woman I met years ago on a flight.

She had asked me what I did for a living.

“I stay home with my daughter,” I had replied, brushing my fingers through my (at-the-time) toddler’s hair who was sitting next to me, proud and probably with a big cheesy grin on my face.

“Yeah, but… what will you do when you grow up?!?” she responded.

You are useless, I had heard then.

You are useless, I heard again this week, and every time someone asked what I will do now that my only child is in school.

You are useless. You have no purpose.

Krista, it’s time to grow up…


 

Understand, the voice that belittles you isn’t God. (This is what I’m learning.)

There was a man in the Bible by the name of Hezekiah who had a lot of discouraging voices coming at him from all directions. In 2 Kings 19:10-11, Hezekiah receives a scathing letter, much like the cruel words that have cut us down this week.

The letter starts out by saying this, “This message is for King Hezekiah of Judah…”

Pause. If you are remaining faithful to the Lord and obeying what He is telling you to do, then understand, there is an enemy who knows your name.

(On the contrary, if you’re not obeying God and being faithful in everything you do, then good news: the enemy likely doesn’t know your name — You’re safe. You’re safe, because you’re not that big of a threat to him.)

The most belittling words are reserved for those making the biggest difference.

When I write, I’m a threat. When my eyes are so unwaveringly fixed on Jesus, I’m a threat. When my marriage is strong, we are unstoppable, and we are a threat. When I’m faithfully following the Lord and obeying every – even incomprehensible – thing He is telling me to do, like Hezekiah, I’m a threat — and so are you!

Knowing when you are most a threat will help you understand when you will be most attacked.

The letter goes on to say this, ” Don’t let your God, in whom you trust, deceive you with promises…. you know perfectly well what the kings of Assyria have done wherever they have gone. They have completely destroyed everyone who stood in their way! Why should you be any different?”(vs. 10-11)

In this passage, we see that the voice that belittles us has two purposes:

  • To get you to question God and the promises He has made.

  • To get you to question your calling and the God-given anointing He has placed on your life.

…And that’s exactly what happened to me these last few weeks.

But it wasn’t what the enemy said to Hezekiah that the power of this passage lies, it’s what Hezekiah did with what the enemy said that changed everything. (It changed everything for me this week as well!)

Verse 14 says, “After Hezekiah received the letters from the messengers and read it, he… spread it out before the Lord.”

I don’t know what words have paralyzed you this week, what lies have been whispered to you that have lulled the fire God desired to awaken in you. Here’s what I want you to know: The enemy knows your name for a reason — You are doing something so so so right, my friend. Don’t give up! Don’t recoil back. (I’m preaching to myself right now as well!)

Secondly, God wants to set the record straight. If only we would bring the words that have wounded us to the Lord, like Hezekiah.

Bringing it before the Lord* is just a fancy way of saying, ask God what He thinks. Scribble the words you’re hearing so clearly and cruelly, on a sheet of paper or on a note on your cell phone, and invite God to set the record straight and to speak louder than the voice you are hearing.

And God did set the record straight — for me and Hezekiah! (You can read what God told Hezekiah here)

When I told God I was hearing my life was wrong, God corrected me, saying, “your life isn’t wrong, your life is different.

When I told Him I was hearing I was going to New York alone, God set the record straight and said we weren’t going alone, we were going first. — “Leaders always go first,” He added.

When I told Him I was feeling rejected, God told me on the contrary, I was being set apart.

And when I told Him I was feeling useless with my only child now being in school, He told me, “you are not useless, you are available.” — And God can do a lot with an ‘available’ person, I should know. Just last November when my husband lost his job, God gave us a 5 week trip to 5 different countries for FREE! A trip we would have never gotten the chance to take had God not made us ‘available’ and allowed my husband to lose his job.

“I can do a lot with an empty calendar,” God reminded me, allowing expectancy to surge into all the areas insecurity had attempted to take root.

…And all because I brought what I was hearing to the Lord, like Hezekiah, and allowed God to set the record straight.

Am I the only one who has been hearing such clear and cruel words these last couple weeks? Or worse, momentarily stopped doing what God asked me to do because (*gasp*) for a moment I believed those lies? 

How have you fought to get to the bottom of truth? Asking for a friend.

// 52 weeks to write, 37 to go. //

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18 thoughts on “You’re NOT what you are hearing”

  1. Once again, thank you so much for your words of honesty. You are NOT alone in these feelings. This has been an especially rough season for me as well. Fortunately Holy Spirit talks louder than the enemy in these times. If we will just pay attention and keep our eyes fixed on Him, he will lift us up and comfort us like a babe in it’s mothers loving arms…. Life is HARD and getting harder every day. The world is fallen and so unbearably evil. I could not even get out of bed without the help of Jesus. I pray daily for this fallen world and all of my brothers and sisters in Christ here and especially around the world. Have a blessed Resurrection Sunday and keep pressing on! ❤

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    1. So good, Renee! It’s so true, if we pay attention and keep our eyes on him it enables us to hear him over the lies we are hearing! Thanks for sharing that. Praying for you in this difficult season ❤️

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  2. These words were for me. I’ve been struggling , almost to the point of breaking, with the doubt of my worth in Christ. Just this morning my prayer was that the Lord would show me that the enemies condemnation was indeed false. Thank you for writing this week. Your obedience was my answer to prayer.

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    1. Wow!!! That’s powerful, Sylvia! I would say, God heard that prayer of yours!!! So glad it encouraged you, and pushed out some of the lies you are hearing during this season. Praying for you right now, Sylvia, that god would not only shut out the lies but that he would overwhelm you with truth — his truth — and his unshakeable love for you. Because you are NOT what you are hearing, my friend. Not even close ❤️

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  3. Krista,

    Thank you for sharing this! I have forwarded to many knowing it will encourage them as it has for me!

    I love you! Michele

    Michele sent this message from her iPhone

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    1. I’m so glad. I hope it encourages them! Miss you, friend. Wish you were close enough to stop by, or visa verse. You and Leon left an imprint on our hearts. So thankful for your family’s kindness ❤️

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  4. Thank you for choosing to obey the Lord and write today. My past month has been filled with rejection, opposition, blame, and even bullying from my older sisters. My mother has been ill with some type of cancer that we weren’t really sure of and the treatments being done locally were like cutting the grass without treating the problem. I asked my mother if she wanted a second opinion. She agreed and now I’m the cause of her illness and the cause of her pain. I just left the hospital an hour ago feeling like the voices around me were louder than the truth. I sat in my chair to check my emails and I found your post. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and whispers from the Lord.

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    1. Wow — thank you for sharing that, as I know it takes a lot of vulnerability to reach out and share parts of your story (especially the hurtful parts) So glad god answered your heart’s cry and encouraged you through my post. Praying for your mother, and praying for you as you step out in courage to care for her. You are NOT what you are hearing, my friend. From the bottom of my heart, Thanks for reaching out.

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  5. Once again as the word says, a word spoken in due season! Thank you for writing even from your doubt, fears, pain and all that you’ve gone through. I pray for you often and know God has you girl! I’m reminded in psalms when he said why are you down cast oh my soul.. Then says I will put my hope in God. Sometimes, most times, we got to speak truth into our own souls.

    Keep soldiering on!!

    2 Tim 2:3

    We must endure hardship, as a good soldier of Christ Jesus!!

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    1. Yes! It’s so true, isn’t it? I am just now learning that — that I need to speak courage and truth into my own soul! Thank you for those prayers! I can’t tell you how much they mean to me, Tara ❤️

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  6. But I DO believe those ugly words and even more. I have no future now. I’m 77 and handicapped and my husband of 42 years is leaving me. I don’t want to live and I don’t want to die. I just want to not hurt so much anymore. I wish I could stop loving him and just let him go. I really don’t believe God wants us to divorce but he doesn’t care what God wants, only what he wants and that’s away from me. I don’t believe it will be ok. I know God loves me. Why isn’t it enough? Why do I have to have this man around as well? Yes, there is another woman and I fight and fight against wanting to curse her. It just all hurts so much. I don’t know how to fight for my marriage any more.

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    1. Joria, I am sorry your heart is hurting so deeply. I know for myself the wild in-between of not wanting to live but not wanting to die. (I used to wake up and stare at the same spot on the wall every morning, partly discouraged that I woke up for – yet another painfully uncertain – day) As I’m typing this I am praying that god would give you clear signs that he is with you in this, that you are not alone and that he is NOT DONE. That he would flood all of the sorrow and uncertainty in your heart with his truth and compassion for you. That his voice would speak louder than the voices that are tearing you down and leaving you defeated and with no hope. God loves you so much, joria. He sees you trying to pick up the pieces of your life, and he hears you crying out in agony as your heart breaks. But you are not alone, and God is not done. And I’m praying God would give you tangible proof of that this week.

      Thanks for reaching out and sharing your heart ❤️

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