If you feel like God is ignoring you, you’re probably right.


I know, I know… God’s timing is perfect and He will give us the desires of our hearts. I’m both familiar with these truths and believe they hold true.

But that being said, REALLLLLY, tho… God is ignoring me.

…and the two pregnancy tests in my hand are proof.


Fun fact: Did you know it takes three years for an unused pregnancy test to expire? –THREE – flipping – YEARS!!!! Yet here they are; unopened, and expiring in two months.

As I ran my fingers along the foil packaging this last week, I couldn’t help but think how those two pieces of plastic were such incriminating proof that God had been letting all of my calls go straight to voicemail (at least in this area.) How those two pregnancy tests were purchased, you guessed it… three years ago. But how we’ve wanted a baby for so much longer than that (5 1/2 years to be exact.)

I thought back to when my daughter was 6 months old and how we had started trying to have another child. How God closed that door. How I had pleaded with Him to allow me to be pregnant by my daughter’s 2nd birthday. How I watched as her 3rd…4th…5th… birthdays came and went, with no hope of a baby in sight. How she turned six this month.

“You’re right,” God acknowledged, “…I have been ignoring you.”

(And strangely, He didn’t even try to deny it.)

In Matthew 15 (MSG) a woman is pleading with Jesus for a miracle. She asks not once… not twice… but numerous times. Yet, scripture says something shocking:

It says, …Jesus ignored her. (The Bible’s words, not mine.)

Even still, we watch as the woman refuses to be deterred. But Jesus takes it a step further…

…He refuses her.

I don’t know about you, but I could have handled the times God ignored me. But when He refused me? Well… quite frankly, that enraged me!

How I had prayed over that empty room in my home, believing it would one day hold all the memories and onesies of my next child. How I had imagined where I’d position the crib and the color I would paint the walls, and how I celebrated the miracle it was that my husband and I were – even considering – having another baby (when just a couple of years earlier, we were much more preoccupied with looking up divorce attorneys.)

How in spite of all of my hopes and prayers and belief for that baby, the room stayed empty and unpainted; how instead, the medical bills piled on the counter next to the coffee pot after the miscarriage.

Believe me when I say, I know God’s refusal stings. Much like when your toddler unnecessarily swipes you across the face with the palm of their hand as you’re feeding them a spoonful of peas. How everything in you wants to grab God sternly by the hand and declare, THAT. WAS. NOT. NICE. How at times you can almost feel Him laughing at you. At best, He’s not taking you seriously.

I’m sure the woman in the passage felt the same way. But nevertheless, she refused to budge in her belief.

We find her on her hands and knees now; begging… pleading… believing… for the miracle she heard He’s capable of doing. She’s heard all about this man named Jesus and what others have said He can do, and now she wants to see it with her own eyes. She refuses to relinquish her position until she does.

And it says this:

…Jesus gave in.

Don’t miss this sequence of events:

Jesus ignored her.

Jesus refused her.

Jesus gave in.

God is ignoring you, you’re right… This wont be a post trying to talk you out of that. (Though I’m sure there are beautiful ones that smell like rainbows and unicorns and are titled ‘God’s timing is perfect’ that may try. This just isn’t one of them.)

I’m here today not to change your mind, but to pose a question — A question straight to the area in which you feel most ignored by God, and the very thing you’ve nearly given up believing for because of it. (It’s the same question God put on my heart this last month when the birthday festivities and those two plastic sticks, represented every unanswered prayer I have prayed.)

God is asking us to consider this:

How many times have we given up, right before He was about to give in?

How many times have we given up on a dream… a calling… heck, a person… right before God was about to swoop in and do what only He can do?

Because like the woman in this passage, our most unrelenting pleas have indeed been rejected (God’s not denying that.) But what if they’re also – just one step away – from being answered?

What if we’re right, God’s rescue is nowhere in sight… but what if it’s also just around the corner?

That’s how it was for Paul.

In Acts 27:20, Paul says these words while hopelessly lost at sea, “It had been many days since we had seen either sun or stars. Wind and waves were battering us unmercifully, and we lost all hope of rescue.”

I wonder how many prayers Paul cried out to God before he lost all hope of rescue? Because here’s the thing… it was just around the corner.

If you’re like me, you haven’t seen the sun or stars in a long time. Not only has God ignored you, He’s refused you, and now it seems you’ve been enveloped in this storm for so long, you fear the miracle you’ve been praying for will never happen. Or worse, that God is no longer listening. Sometimes you swear you can even feel Him laughing at you.

You’ve sent out well over 100 resumes and received not even a single call back. The nursery has stayed empty for going on 6 years now, and the pregnancy tests aren’t just negative, they aren’t even opened! You’ve cried. You’ve gotten on your hands and knees. You’ve said something to God to the tone of, THAT. WAS. NOT. NICE!!!

And yah know what we’ve received in return?




God’s not denying that. He’s simply asking why we lost hope in the miracle because of it? Why we’ve falsely believed that because we can’t see the sun and stars today, that somehow that means they no longer exist at all?

Today God’s asking us to take hold of the prayer we’ve given up praying, and to believe for the miracle it would be that His redemption and the fulfillment of that prayer is right around the corner.

(His redemption for you & me & baby Ortiz.)




Krista Ortiz






7 thoughts on “If you feel like God is ignoring you, you’re probably right.”

  1. Yes, yes, yes. But what happens when time on earth runs out? My mother/family/friends prayed and prayed for a son lost in addiction, for his restoration. By the time he conquered addiction, his mind was about burned out from the drugs and alcohol, ended up dying from lung cancer. How was that an answer to prayer? Now as a mother myself of an opiate addicted son, who is currently in recovery, I live with the fear that an odd twitch or chemical misfire could undo all the progress he’s made. It’s just so hard sometimes. I never stop believing in the miracle, I guess I’ve seen so many unanswered or when the answer is “refused”, that it’s hard to believe it will ever happen, even though I keep hoping. I keep hoping and praying to turn the corner and see the blessings some get to where it all makes sense. But for now, it’s just unending pleading and praying. I read a quote not too long ago – “For as long as we breathe, we hope”. This life doesn’t make sense to me at times.


  2. But you see, sometimes what you are asking for is not good for your salvation, so instead of giving you what you are asking for, God gives you what you NEED for your soul. I’ve been praying and praying and praying that my marriage be saved. My husband is due to leave this house, oh……yeah……today. Except he’s not. He’s still here and still saying he’s leaving, while finding excuse after excuse as to why he’s still here. Now mind you, I DO NOT want him to leave. After 42 years of loving him, (and most of the time I still do), I want him with me here. It would be even better if he were here still loving me and being the wonderful man I knew for 42 years, but I’d even settle for the p.i.t.a. he has become, (while still praying for him to soften his heart and me to love him through the nastiness), in the hope that it will work out. I believe with all my heart that God does NOT want marriages to break up. They aren’t contracts, they are covenants, and you don’t mess with a covenant between you, someone else, and God. But what God has been saying to me is what I want is NOT good for my salvation for Him to answer that particular prayer. Now mind you, I haven’t totally given up. I’ve just changed the prayer a bit, tweaked it here and there and still have the bottom line of “save my marriage”, but with a big dose of “save OUR souls” and a “please help me become the woman You want me to be that I may live in Your perfect will.” I don’t know why my husband is still here. It doesn’t matter why. I’m just thanking God for each day and wondering over everything that is playing out, and still storming heaven for my marriage to last till death, not man, do us part.


  3. I definitely needed this read today. I had given up praying for that one thing that I so desperately hoped for over the last 18 years, and although it is something I still hope for I was/am tired of being disappointed… this helped me realize that I need to continue. God is there, God Loves me and he knows the end of the story.


  4. I lived with being told I was infertile for 15 yrs. I just had my first baby in May and am pregnant with my second. This morning, I kid you not, my morning was spent praying for the mama’s fighting to have a baby. I know the pain. I know the heartache every time you get your period after it was late. I’m terribly sorry God hasn’t answered this for you, but I will continue to pray and plead to him for you and many other women who struggle.


    1. This is amazing tara! Amazing to think you were praying that on the exact day I posted this! Celebrating god’s miracles in YOUR life!! Because that same powerful god is working on my behalf! 🙌🏼


  5. I hope you are right! Thank you for your messages..
    in the midst of my pain and hurt as my husband goes ahead with a divorce petition in the next coming weeks.. I am slowly losing all hope and all faith and trust in man and God.
    And it breaks me to say that.

    All i want is one simple answer, should i stand or not for the man i love and for my marriage.. And all i get is silence.. Are my prayers not enough?
    I do know God has only good things planned for me. But its very difficult when the road ahead looks lonely and bleak.

    I can only try and have faith that my answer is just around the corner.


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