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I began this summer feeling breathless and overwhelmed after 7 long years of planting a church in New York City. The prophetic words spoken over my husband and me in 2017, just before we embarked on this adventurous (and arduous) endeavor for Jesus, were now at the forefront of my mind. A man with a
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Years ago… another lifetime ago, really… I remember a day so tragic that every cell in my body felt like it changed in response. We were young, twenty-something youth pastors taking the teens in our youth group to Summer Camp when, unimaginably, one of the boys in our youth group tragically slipped beneath the most
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If there’s one thing I’ve learned about myself, it’s that I’m willing to go to great lengths to hide my deepest pain and messiest emotions. Perhaps you do the same thing. Maybe you were taught that concealing your pain is what faith demands of you. But what if I told you that you no longer…
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I understand why people walk away from God. Might be a strange thing to hear me say as a Christian, and not only that, as a woman who has thrown her entire adult life into starting a church in NYC, but it’s true. I know for myself that sometimes, because of something God allows or
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Within the first two hours of waking up on my 35th birthday, I had cried all the makeup off my face. It had been the first thing I had done when I woke up that morning: busy myself with getting ready in hopes that it would mask or, at the very least, distract from all…
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It was New Year’s Eve, four years ago, that my life was launched into a disorienting plague-like set of misfortunes that would rattle my faith and leave me reeling. It was then that I scribbled a secret declaration to myself and God in my journal. Because of what I was enduring and how cruel it
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I’m doing everything God desired me to do, and I’m disappointed by the results. Those are the words I said over the phone to my mom just over a year ago, such brutally honest words, that had I not said them out loud I might never have remembered saying them at all. It was my
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I have a lot of people close to me who’ve been crossing their fingers for the day that I might write again. And here we are, I’m writing again. To be honest, it’s been strange after all these years, but it’s nice I think. And its healing — that’s certain. I’m sure God will have
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I’ll start by saying this, I hate this season of my life. Like for real, I’m not a fan. Have I been through worse? So much worse. But make no mistake, this season I’m currently walking through is no freaking cake walk and it’s testing me in ways that make me want to rip my
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It’s been exactly 16 months since I have written on this blog. An eternity really, when for so many years and through so many circumstances, this was the place I retreated to. My little corner of the world where I could cry and vent, document my life, and occasionally, have it out with God. I
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