Writing Through The Mess

  • I’m sorry, but your perfectly restored marriage will never be handed to you.

    Those are the words I spoke to a woman, whose marriage was rapidly deteriorating. I watched as my words landed. Observing her eyes widen, and her mouth open as if to protest, but nothing came out. She looked shell-shocked at my brashness. Confused, how a woman like myself, that is such proof of God’s miraculous

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  • You don’t have to run from your feelings in the name of faith, anymore.

    Last week, I found myself gasping for breath as I wept. Deep and heavy and messy mourning, like something died. Like something died a long time ago, but I didn’t grieve… Like, I never allowed myself to grieve.  Never, in a million years, did I expect the tears to come. I’m alright, I thought. I

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  • What my daughter taught me about a jealous God

    I’m not going to lie, God (often) has to put me in my place. And none more harsh than when it comes to my daughter. …My 5 year-old ninja-turtle-loving daughter. When it comes to my child, I have felt God’s correction most severe. His words to me almost cutting, even reprimanding at times. And what I’ve

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  • The one thing that will bring you to your knees about God

    There’s this trait that will one day bring you to your knees about God. I know, because it happened to me this week… There on my knees, I found myself, tears streaming from my eyes. Partly in shock, but more than anything, unashamedly grateful. …Grateful, for a God who goes before me.

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  • The only thing I am certain of (and it’s not a whole lot)

    I’m going to let you in on a little secret: I have no idea what my life will look like a week from now… a month from now… heck, don’t get me started on a year from now! Even still, I mean it when I say this, never in my life have I ever been

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  • You’re NOT what you are hearing

    Your life is wrong. You’re all alone… a reject. You, are useless. Those are the words I’ve been hearing over these last few weeks. Oftentimes so clear, it nearly stops me in my tracks. To be honest, it’s why I haven’t written these past couple weeks. (Sigh* I’m sorry about that, friends.) But I’ve made the decision

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  • What has you acting so desperate?

    I don’t know about you, but I’ve had THE WORST attitude for the last 7+ days. Just ask my husband. I don’t know if it was the 31 days I spent alone with a puppy and a preschooler, or the move we just made to New York City, or the fact that we are currently living

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  • You’re going to say thanks for the suffering

    We’re moving to NYC this weekend. And as I was packing, I was reminded of one of the most profound memories I have while living in South Carolina — the day God told me, that one day, I was going to thank Him for my suffering. (And He was right.) You’re going to thank Him

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  • On the Day Before Your Deliverance

    Confession: This week I almost gave up – literally, the day before – God was about to provide exactly what I’ve been so desperately praying for. I’ve probably written about a million different things that I’ve needed God to do on this blog, but this week we desperately needed God to give us a New York

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  • A Love Letter to the City We Will Never Return to

      I’ve lived in many cities in my life, but there’s only one I’ll likely never return to and that’s Anderson, SC. In fact, the only thing more shocking than us moving back to NYC, is that we ever left and moved to Anderson in the first place! After all, it was only three years ago

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