This isn’t the blog post I was expecting to write this week, and there are three other drafts floating around my desktop as proof.
Originally, I was planning on telling you that in spite of how God blessed us last month, there are still so many questions we still don’t have answers to, so many more miracles my family needs.
I was going to tell you:
- How we’re selling our beautiful home in South Carolina, only to put what feels like a trillion dollars (we currently don’t have) down on a one bedroom apartment in NYC that is double the cost of our mortgage and might not have windows in it. #TrueStory …and in the next two weeks… No pressure.
- How it’s uncertain if we’ll be able to bring our dog, a dining room table, or if we’ll even have room for our bed in NYC. (I’m not kidding.)
- How in the last week, the reality of all the above made me cry in the kitchen in the arms of my husband, snap at my daughter, and consume more ice-cream then I care to admit. (There are 5 tubs in the freezer.)
It’s all so overwhelming, I told God over and over this week.
And God’s response? Well, it wasn’t what I expected…
He said, It’s time to shut up about it, Krista…
In Jeremiah 17:7-8 it says in response to everything we are overwhelmed with today, “But blessed is the man who trusts God, the woman who sticks with God. They’re like trees replanted in Eden… Never a worry through the hottest summers, never dropping a leaf, Serene and calm through droughts, bearing fresh fruit every season.”
Never a worry… Serene and calm…
I don’t know what you’re up against today, or what stressful circumstance is blazing against you and threatening to steal your serenity. It may be far more serious than weeping over an apartment without windows. But according to that verse, those of us who trust in the Lord and stick to His plan (even when it makes no sense) have reason to be:
I don’t know about you, but I’ve been a far-cry from composed and quiet this week…
“Do you trust Me? Then it’s time to shut up about it,” I can feel God saying. “…It’s time to stop snapping at your loved ones, eating your body weight in ice-cream, and crying in the kitchen like I’ve forgotten about you.
…Even when My voice seems silent and My provision feels absent, you never need to worry. You can wait in confidence knowing no matter how uncertain the path, the destination I’m leading you to will be wonderful, and that in time, I will pour out My blessing like water onto the earth.”
…It’s embarrassing how hard it is to believe that sometimes, am I right?
Today I challenge us to make two lists: one detailing every impossible thing we need God to do, and another (like the list above) declaring every unnatural thing God promises we can be while we wait.
— Serene and calm is a good start.
Then let’s scrap the bemoaning drafts, and do everything in our power to stay relaxed even though the path ahead might be wrought with uncertainty. Let’s choose today to stop lashing out and breaking down out of fear of what we can’t see, and instead remain composed and expectant of what God is promising He will do.
It could change everything.
(At the very least it could save us some money on ice cream.)
// 52 weeks to write, 45 more to go. //